stuff.

I think I like the feeling of being stressed,

I find myself looking at my planner and adding "stuff" just to make myself feel more accomplished.

Looking at the thing just stresses me out more, but its kind of like a jolt of adrenaline. 

I look at a "slow month" and feel unsatisfied.

WHY

I sound like a crazy person.

Who measures their worth by appointments, and events and stuff.

humans. people. me, mostly.

What is God concerned with?

Not my meeting schedule. Thats for sure.

A wise lady once shared with me the way i should look at the "things" in my life.

She told me if the activity I am doing (work, volunteer, clubs ect) is not directly going to benefit my goals for the future, and also bring joy to my life, then I should drop it.

I actually quit my previous job the day after she shared that with me.

#whoops 

So why do I keep doing everything, in an attempt to spin 10 plates perfectly?

What prize is there for being the most overcommitted 21 year old?

No prize! and the reality is I am no where near wining.

There is a huge list of those crazier than me, I know this because I am surrounded by them in my classes. 

So where do I go from here?

R E S T

This week my goal is to rest.

Spend time sitting, with Jesus, soaking in his goodness and maybe chatting with him about what he wants me to cut from my crazy planner. I'm sure he has some good ideas. 

Always does!